i wish my parents had known it

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We might be agreed that parents are two angels who play the biggest roles in our development. Whether it’s in our mental, physical, social, financial, or career. Parents help us in every step of our life. But, we can't deny that for some people, not all parents are angels. The fact that our parents are human, means they are imperfect and impossible to be kind all the time made us think that sometimes our parents weren't as good as they supposed to be. 

When I was five, my dad worked at somewhere far away so I could hardly see him everyday. That was the reason why I just wanted to be with my mom. I used to act like I don't need anyone else but Mom. She used to be someone who always listens to me.

"My mom is the only one who never got tired to answer all of my shitty questions. She knows how to take care of me. She knows how to treat people around her. She's just an angel! If I grow up, I wanna be like her."

My family was just perfect back in days. But everything has changed when I was six. Ya, my dad lost his job, I got a little sister, my mom had to work while having a baby and you know what's worst? I lost my home.

"Everyone's busy, there are a lot of things to be done. You are not a little girl anymore. You have to take care of yourself from now on."

That's what my mom said when I was crying in the corner because my first day at school was fucked up. And, that was the last time I expressed my feeling.

Many things happened for the past sixteen years, and I told my parents about those good moments only. Sometimes, I hurt them by saying such rude things. Sometimes, my mom cries because she can't understand me. Sometimes, my dad gets angry and almost punch me. Sometimes, I do nothing but just wanna leave. I feel guilty and disappointed, all I do is nothing but just try to wish..

I wish my parents had known that...

I've got hurt when people called me ugly.

I've cried a lot when my friends treated me poorly.

I've been feeling empty,

and loneliness is killing me slowly.

I am deeply sorry for being me.

I wish my parents had known that...

The world hurts me,

that's why I yelled I wish I wasn't born in this family.

No one knows I've been suffering,

that's why I said I hate this family.

Yes, I was being a dick. 

When I was young, I had so much hatred. 

But it wouldn't have happened if my parents were here.

You all might have been feeling this kind of shit. 

Fighting with your parents or just giving silence treatment so you could be seen.

We wish our parents had known that...

We never hate them for real.

We just want them to wipe away our tears,

and listen to our fears.

We wish our parents had known that.. 

We never tired of being sorry. 

and we love them unconditionally.

Yes. We wish.. our parents had known it.

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